I have always been optimistic in life. Even in the worst crisis I have always remained hopeful that it is just a temporary phase and soon with the Blessings of Allah better times would come. My theology had not merely remained in my personal life but also relating to national life. I am now over 60 and for the first time in life despair has over powered me.
Like the silent majority, I have never joined any political party nor have favoured any. My favourite, if one been, Jamaat-i-Islami for which I had always felt regard but always prayed to Allah to save us from this party coming to power.
I have always believed, it is we the silent majority who are the main problem of all our national ills. I believe, mentally we all are not educated and are just like goats. We have always chosen our leaders despite knowing they in the past cheated us and would do the same. I had always hoped that with the passage of time the maturity will come in this nation and our country would start heading towards real destination though it would take time.
The first time a little disappointment but temporary one, I felt was when I saw the highly educated women, men and children dancing on streets when their leader got foreign nationality.
In other part of the world even in India, where poverty is more severe, even an ordinary Indian would feel ashamed if any of their leaders despite having foreign passport still claimed himself to be a local leader. Many of our leaders spent most of the time abroad in luxury and shamelessly claimed that they were concerned about ordinary poor people. We are always critical that the reason for failure of our policies was that those in ruling and bureaucratic class are educated from American universities, hence they mentally deal things with American approach.